I don’t remember meeting him, or even spending a moment with him, but I can feel it stronger than anything. I’m crazy about him! I love him!
Victor as "Kiki" in Belle Chose (2x03)
Requested by Anonymous
Enver Gjokaj’s various characters in Dollhouse
“The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can’t be any large-scale revolution until there’s a personal revolution, on an individual level. It’s got to happen inside first.”-Jim Morrison
Victor/Anthony!Topher - requested by mostlypoptarts.
And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you.
"I Want The Real You" - Who Is Roger?
A Spy In The House of Love is a pivotal episode for Adelle as a character and so far as her overall arc goes. Most of this is due to the betrayal that she faces from Dominic (a betrayal she does not take lightly nor feel lightly about) but a small part of it is due to her storyline involving Victor in an imprint named Roger. We have previously heard of “Miss Lonely Hearts” on the show and this is the episode where she is revealed to be Adelle (taking a little something home from the office). I find the Roger imprint to be quite interesting and wish we had known more about the circumstances which would have prompted Adelle to become a client of her own business.
There are two possibilities for who Roger is and both give us insight into Adelle as a character. The first possibility (and the one I believe to be true) is that Roger was once a real person; someone whom Adelle once loved and lost, more than likely to an early death. The way Adelle interacts with Roger is very natural; she smiles, laughs and softens her voice, her body language is very intimate and comfortable and something about the way she tells Victor “I want the real you" indicates a deeper longing. If this possibility is true, if Roger truly was a real person, then this adds a very tragic layer to Adelle. She becomes someone who has lost the person she loved, who is still grieving and unable to let go. It could also explain how she became involved in the Dollhouse. I have always thought that Adelle, while aware of the dangerous nature of her job and the company she works for, genuinely believes in what she thinks is the Dollhouse’s mission; she truly believes that they are helping to give people what they need. If she lost someone she loved this could explain why she holds this belief; through the Dollhouse she can hold onto love, can hold onto security and intimacy and she believes that other people deserve this too.
The second possibility is that Roger is simply Adelle’s ideal man. Adelle leads a very lonely life; she has few friends and most of her life revolves around her work. As with most people she gets lonely and starts to crave intimacy, so she decides to become a client of the Dollhouse, rationalising that no one will find out nor is she in an ethical quandary so long as she is a paying client. If this possibility is true then it gives us a nice little illustration of what Adelle looks for in a partner. Roger is intelligent and probably highly educated. He is wealthy, has a good job and appears to be cultured. He is a strong personality in addition to being physically strong. In short, Adelle is looking for someone who is her equal; someone who matches her intellect, her intelligence and her strength. She wants someone who can keep up with her without overtaking, someone who will challenge her and allow her to challenge them in return. Above everything she wants someone with whom she can be vulnerable. There is a pretty little post-coital scene in this episode where Adelle and Roger talk about quitting their jobs and living on the beach, drinking cold beers and watching dogs run into the surf. Adelle would never have this type of conversation with anyone else so it is delightful to hear her talk about these things with Roger.
The most important scene, which lends credence to both possibilities, is the one in which Adelle silently walks into the bedroom, reaches for Roger and starts to cry. Adelle is woman who likes and thrives on control. She always has a firm hold on her own emotions, she never allows people to see her be vulnerable and she presents a very stoic exterior. For her to allow herself to break down in such a raw and unguarded way is both sad and beautiful. It shows that she is human, that she does feel loss and betrayal and that she has a deep emotional side. Additionally, the fact that she breaks down in front of someone whom she then seeks comfort from tells us that she is either in the presence of someone she has know for years, whom she loves and trusts or that she deeply longs for that kind of connection; that she is a lonely soul who, like everyone, wants someone in their corner.